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15 Mistakes + Lessons From Being Married For 5 years (including a deep realization about being faithful)

October is going to be a very exciting month for us. My husband Charlie and I will be celebrating 5 years of marriage and we will also be welcoming our baby girl to this world, the most wonderful miracle we have created together.

The past 5 years of marriage have been such a blessing and a big eye and heart opening for me. I matured a lot. I changed a lot emotionally. Even though many days or sometimes a month or two would go by where things were rocky. I struggled in my relationship. I had doubts. I had anger. I had sadness and disappointment. Yet, even though I did not know it at the time, every single hardship I went through was a blessing in disguise. It was a necessary step for peeling off the layers that prevented me from building a deeper emotional intimacy with my husband.

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For so many of us, we think that our work as a couple stop when we get married. It is actually the most ridiculous fantasy we have built in our society because quiet frankly our work starts when we get married. That means – at some point in time, the mask we carried during dating will dissolve and our real fears will surface – we have no choice but to work through them if we really want to have a happy and long-lasting relationship. Marriage gets us triggered big time to face our deepest flaws and in return we trigger our partner to experience the same. We are nothing but each other’s mirror and the flaws that we see in our partner are nothing but a projection of the flaws that have been buried within us.

“We carry all the qualities in the world”: That means we carry the ugly, good and beautiful. In other words, every time I pointed the finger at my husband for something I didn’t like, if I were to be pretty honest with myself, I would realize that I have done the same thing with him or with other people. That’s why, marriage is such a holy relationship because this is the place where your wounds will surface. This is the holy place where you can (if you choose to) heal everything that aches from jealousy to anxiety, insecurity, confidence, communication and most of all truly being vulnerable and intimate with yourself first and then your partner.

Today, I’ll share with you few things I learned in the past few years from my mistakes – I hope they would open your heart and mind to start taking actions and really take marriage as something that is HOLY.

1- Never correct your partner in public: I did this so many times without any intention of harm of course. It would come out naturally over something that is silly. Even if your partner is not correct with what they’re saying, just smile and be supportive. This may sound dishonest for so many, but the most important thing for a man is for his opinion to be respected. That’s how their identity is built. Correcting them is very similar to when they criticize our feelings such as: this is not a big deal, why are you getting overly emotional about it? And, we all know – we all hate when this happens because we feel disrespected.

2- It’s better to complain than to criticize: Criticism is poison to any relationship. Who likes to be criticized? It’s unproductive, hurtful and add more unnecessary wounds. There are so many ways to feel heard: We don’t have to hurt other people in order for us to let them know that we’re hurt or sometimes we do that because we don’t know how else to express our wants. Vulnerability is key here and what I mean by that is sit with yourself, learn about how you feel first about the situation, express how you feel to yourself and then know what you want from your man.

For example: Let’s say you’re angry because your man doesn’t pick up after himself. This makes many of us so angry because really at the bottom of it, it’s not about not picking up the clothes, it’s about not being acknowledged/ heard for how we feel about the situation. Criticism/ blame sounds like this: You are so clumsy. I’m so sick of always picking up after you – why do I always have to remind you about this?

Complaint sounds more like this: Sweetheart, I feel hurt today. I know you must have forgotten to pick up after yourself but I’m really very tired and sometimes it’s very overwhelming for me to see everything that I have to do every day. Can we figure out a way to work this thing out where we’re both happy about the situation?

Bottom line: Learn to use open ended questions and discussions instead of being critical and judgmental.

3- It’s okay to argue and fight in a healthy way: Many couples avoid fighting or discussing things that hurt them because they’re afraid of ruining the relationship. The opposite is true actually. When you don’t express how you feel and what hurts you, when you suppress your thoughts and emotions then one day things will blow in your face then it may be too late to fix anything. Therefore, expressing your anger in a constructive way is very important especially if you desire to have intimate relationship with your partner.

4- Let go of being controlling – you can’t have things your way all the time: Many women want their partner to prove their love by saying yes to everything they want. Sometimes, men do what we want to get us off their back especially if we’re critical and pushy about the situation. But is this really the kind of relationship we want? So, it’s very important to listen to what your man wants as well and come up with a compromise and negotiate in your marriage. Marriage is not all about you and your feelings, men have feelings too even though they’re so much more discreet about it then we are. When you allow a safe space for them to open up to you, you’ll be surprised with how much more appreciation and love they would give you.

5- Don’t say yes when you mean no: You’re not only being dishonest and unfair to him at this point but you’re also being dishonest with yourself too. You’re not only creating future conflicts and resentment in the relationship but you’re also creating anger towards yourself and eventually you’ll see yourself as a victim instead of realizing that you’re the one who has created the situation in the first place.

6- Every time you blame, point the finger back at you: Blaming is a sign of immaturity. That doesn’t mean you let the person get away with what they have done or that doesn’t mean suppress your feelings either. But before you point the finger at your partner, check in with yourself HONESTLY and see where have you done or are doing the same thing in your life. Ask yourself: What was my role in this situation? Take responsibility for your feelings. No one can trigger a specific emotion within you unless the wound was already there and that means – it’s yours to work through.

7- Do you feel jealous, insecure or abandoned? Express what you’re feeling: Many of us feel this way in one way or another. Some suppress it, some play games and for some they come up with fights and this is what confuses men because at this point they have no idea what they did wrong. I learned to express my feelings with my husband without blame of course though sometimes I fail but I always go back and apologize because it’s so much more important to me to master my emotions than to let my partner repair the wound.

It’s okay to say: I felt jealous today or I’m not feeling safe right now in the relationship. Of course, state what’s making you insecure and again take responsibility for your feelings. If you want them to do something specific, then also ask for it as long as you’re also doing the same thing in return.

Vulnerability is so essential and powerful in a relationship – it is also part of showing the nurturing side of the feminine energy. There are times when you’re going to be sick, depressed, sad or going through some rough times. It is okay to show that side of you to your husband because as human beings we love to feel needed – it gives us a deeper sense of purpose – that’s also part of showing our true authentic self.

8- Be honest with yourself and with your partner: I’m so blessed with the relationship I have because I’m extremely honest with my husband about everything. Honest and transparent in a kind way of course but in order for me to do this, I learned to be honest and kind with myself first. How else could I be honest with him if I’m not clear about my feelings first?

I learned to question my thoughts and feelings before I judge. I try to do this as much as possible especially when I’m choosing to be a mindful person. I love the following quote by Carl Jung and I hope it inspires you to start thinking and questioning before jumping into conclusions.

“Thinking is difficult, that’s why most people judge”. – Carl Jung

9- Name calling is poison: One of my biggest lessons this year is to know the difference between saying: You’re mean vs you’re being mean. When we directly name call our partner (or anyone else) we’re basically not only criticizing them but we’re also telling them that they are “that thing” we are calling them. When it is often very far from reality. For example: I can be a bitchy person in a specific situation but that doesn’t mean I’m bitchy 100% of the time. This kind of judgment is very harmful, hurtful, disrespectful and simply not true because they’re probably not mean 100% of the time then why turn them into something they’re not?

10- Give compliments, say thank you and say I’m sorry OFTEN: We forget to say thank you and “I appreciate you or appreciate this or that” when we’re in a relationship for a long time. This is just a sign of how we take our blessings for granted and that also includes taking ourselves for granted as well. What would we lose if we say thank you every time our partners did something small including picking up their dish? It just simply shows what kind of person we’re being and that always feels nice.

Many also have hard time saying “I’m sorry” when they do something wrong (including with their kids) because it’s so much more important to be right then to choose kindness and peace – this comes from a place of fear of being weak when the opposite is quiet true. At some point, you must decide what you want in your relationship: What is more important for you? Being in control or being intimate and at peace with your partner?

11- Listen to him without trying to fix his problem and listen more even if it doesn’t interest you: This is a hard one especially when men start discussing things that we don’t understand. For example: my husband talks sometimes about security and techy stuff that I have no idea what they mean. I used to roll my eyes before when he initiated the conversation but then I realized how harmful it was to do this. It didn’t only shut him down around me, but it also made us distant. I learned to be curious about what he’s saying by giving him a safe space to speak. This I continue to learn and will always be work in progress but at least he opens up to me way more than he ever did before and therefore it made us so much closer.

12- Redefine faithfulness: That was a huge one for me this year. It came about when I threw a jealousy tantrum during my pregnancy when my husband was being nice to a cashier attendant. I was feeling so insecure about my body that day and honestly sometimes I would look at a skinny woman and envy her for what she had. It took me a while to embrace my new body and love the way I looked. This affected my relationship with my husband – although I handled the situation quiet maturely by saying to him literarily: I didn’t feel good when you were being extra nice with the cashier. I felt disrespected and hurt. I know you don’t mean to hurt me but I felt hurt.

This situation made me really think hard about how I define the word faithful. When I questioned if my husband was being faithful by flirting or being nice to this woman, my answer was YES. Questioning my thought about this situation led me to the following reminders/discoveries:

1- If he wasn’t faithful, then he would do it behind my back – he was being transparent and being his kind self in front of me. There was nothing to hide and it was beautiful. The insecurity I felt had nothing to do with him but more to do with how much I was rejecting myself at the time (again taking responsibility for your feelings is key to a happy relationship – when we feel rejected and insecure about how we look, that’s because we’re only projecting our own opinion about ourselves on others).

2- He is always always there for me emotionally and when I need him. What else do I want?

3- He is very faithful to his job, boss and his career even when he hated what he did at times. He works with integrity – then how could I doubt someone like him?

4- I’m very outspoken when I find a man attractive, then why shouldn’t he be? I had to decide again what kind of relationship I want.

5- Many women fear their partner cheating on them – however it’s fascinating to me to see how many women actually cheat on their significant others yet they pretend that they did nothing wrong as if they are entitled to hurt others but it’s okay for others to do the same to them. So, If I thought that my husband was unfaithful by being nice to this woman then quiet honestly, I have been unfaithful to him as well because I’m kind to people and to other men as well. I realized that I was unfair and had no logic in my thinking at all and I’m only creating my own hell.

6- I remembered his morals and values and when I did – I also realized that he was never unfaithful to his xgfs before even though some were really not nice to him – that reminded me again what kind of person he is.

7- I know how much he loves me – he shows it to me, says it to me and act on it too (but I forget this sometimes).

Just by questioning my feelings and being honest and redefining being faithful changed my relationship with him tremendously. I know better when a burst of insecurity shows up again. It’s my stuff – it has nothing to do with him.

13- Men have feelings too: Dr Pat allen says: “If you want to have a good relationship – respect your man’s thoughts and cherish your wife’s feelings”. While this is SO SO accurate – men have feelings too. When you create a safe space for them to speak without trying to control them, without trying to change them or fix them then what will unfold will be so sacred and beautiful – it will only bring you so much closer together and most of the time they express their feelings through their thoughts as well so keep your mind, ears and heart open.

14- Invest in your relationship: it simply means do what he loves sometimes and he’ll do what you love at times too and DO what you both love or have in common as well. It doesn’t always have to be the movie that you want or the kind of restaurant that you like. Ask him for what he wants or feels like doing sometimes. For example: watch the show that he loves even though you can’t stand it. The more you invest in him, the more your’ll be committed to the relationship.

15- Finally whatever outcome you’re getting in your relationship is a reflection of your thoughts, your wounds and what kind of person you’re choosing to be: If there’s something you want, ask for it. If there’s something you don’t like then take responsibility for it instead of dumping all your baggage on your partner. Waiting for him to change is a waste of time and unfair as well. Changing your thoughts about the situation, working through your own negative feelings and creating a safe space for both of you to express your thoughts and feelings will give you the peaceful and loving relationship that you want.

It takes so much courage to take responsibility of our own feelings – but I promise you – it’s all a decision. Once you choose peace over war – you’ll know that it’s so much easier to be responsible than to wait for others to change or to give you what you want.

 

When your life purpose is confusing + you don’t know what makes you happy

At some point in our life, especially when we hit our late 20s or mid thirties, we begin to question what life is all about. What am I here for? What’s the point of it all? Who am I?

These questions show up when we’re usually struggling with our jobs, with our relationships or we’re going through depression, anxiety, loss whether it was the loss of a loved one, loss of a job, pet, friend ect..

When I talk about life purpose with clients or sometimes people who are close to me, I notice the same idea showing up over and over again. They often associate life purpose with figuring out what their career should be about. I was one of those people as well until I was not anymore.

My experience and especially my 6 months of depression taught me that it’s extremely dangerous to link my identity (who am I?) and/or my life purpose with my career for one simple reason: What would happen if I lose this job? Would I lose myself with it? Who would I be without it? What would happen to my life purpose then?

For example: let’s say that you feel the deep urge to fight for your country during the war and you deeply believe that this is your life purpose. You join the army and go fight that war. Then what? What happens when the war is over? Is your life purpose over as well?

Here’s what I believe: What we do is an expression of how we perceive ourselves and life. For example: I help people ease their suffering and wake up to their beautiful self – but my life purpose is not attached to that and this is only one aspect of how I’m expressing myself.

Helping people is something I enjoy because it helps us in our human evolution and it brings peace to people’s life. I can also only do this when I too do my inner work and therefore this pushes me to learn from other people about myself and to share what I have learned with others. It makes people I encounter my teachers and my students (that’s applied for all of us).

The effect of my inner work has also an effect on my work with people and my work with people has an effect on people around them. It’s all a ripple effect.

BUT and that’s a big BUT I can only help people from my heart when I’m doing it with love and I can only do it with love when I’m being love and I can only be love when I’m happy with myself.

It’s logic. There’s no need for any spiritual or philosophical or psychological answer here.

Some people’s goal is to get rich, to have their own startup, to be famous…but the question is why is it that they desire to achieve all of this? It is simply because they want to be happy.

So they work so hard to achieve their goals hoping that their achievements will give them happiness yet when they do reach them, they realize that something is still missing in their life.

Why?

Because they can never run away from themselves – what was causing them suffering and unhappiness in the first place is still there until it is not anymore (read about my experience in my book “Life Without Approval”).

So, what does this tell us about life purpose?

For me, it is very simple. I believe that life purpose is a goal and that goal is for us to make ourselves happy and we can only make ourselves happy by working through all the kinks that block that happiness.

In other words, our goal is to purify ourselves from all the negative thoughts, beliefs and patterns that are blocking our happiness in THIS moment. Otherwise, you or I will be chasing our tails for the rest of our lives and something will always be missing.

In Buddhism, they talk about how It is in our human nature to desire to be happy and eliminate suffering. Look at all the actions you take during the day:

You eat because you’re hungry (suffering), you go to work because you want to make a living (you want money so that you can survive….you don’t want to die), you find a relationship because you’re a social animal (you don’t want to be alone, being alone leads to death), you go to the bathroom because if you don’t…you know what happens then and so on.

The problem is on a subconscious level, many individuals believe that they don’t deserve to be happy and that brings them to sabotage themselves in every area of life. Some are even afraid of being happy because they’re not used it – it’s a foreign language to them.

The dangerous thing about this is that it doesn’t only affect our life; it affects the lives of everyone around us. Let me tell you why:

Let’s say you live in a very small village and you believe that you don’t deserve to be happy so what you’re experiencing emotionally could be feeling miserable, resentful, angry, sad, depressed and so on. Then what happens when you’re experiencing these emotions?

Your actions are going to reflect this belief.

Then what happens to people around you when they see your actions and hear your words?

They’re going to be upset by your behavior and they will experience negativity as well.

Then what?

They too….will reflect that in their actions towards people that surround them (unless they’re very conscious).

The ripple effect continues until the entire village becomes so miserable…and what does that lead to? They will all start fighting with one another and that leads to death. Isn’t this what’s happening in the world now?

That’s how powerful your state of being and your decision about deserving to be happy is. That’s why suffering happens in their world. What happened recently in Orlando is an effect of one guy’s deep pain of not embracing his sexuality this led him to kill innocent people and now the entire country is angry about this.

Can you see why it is so important to embrace yourself (negative and positive) and to make your life purpose about finding your own happiness?

But you can only find your own happiness by making peace with yourself. Your new job won’t give you happiness – finding the right partner or a new one won’t give you that happiness….it may temporarily but the feeling of something is missing will come back again and you’ll have to deal with this sooner or later.

But….you may say: if my life purpose is to be happy then what do I do when I don’t even know what makes me happy?

1. Happiness is a state of mind. In other words – it is a decision:

  • Answer the question of: Who am I (WITHOUT your job being involved in the picture). For me the answer is: I have infinite intelligence within me and I’m part of the bigger infinite intelligence. Otherwise everything every religion has talked about (God is the Alpha and Omega – He/She is everywhere and in everything does not make sense). This puts a big responsibility on me as well.
  • Decide that you deserve to be happy.
  • Begin to work through the kinks (your perception about yourself).

2. AGAIN – Decide that it’s worth it to see yourself in a whole new perspective. What’s blocking your happiness is your perception about yourself.

What are you believing about yourself that is blocking the flow of happiness to come to you?

Look at that belief – question it! Meditate on it! Feel how painful it is. Then instead of saying: I should not be this or be that or do this or do that – embrace yourself just as you are and say it’s okay for me to feel this – it is showing up for a reason and that is because that part of me needs to be seen.

When you begin to look at the parts of you that need to be seen with love, they will disappear. When you try to beat the part of you that is struggling then you’ll struggle so much more and this is where all our kinks are.

3. DECIDE to act like happy people do. Have fun. Enjoy life. Find humor in yourself…. in life. Be silly! Enjoy THIS MOMENT. Stop for a second and observe everything around you as if you may die in the next moment. Take a deep breath and really pay attention.

4. Put your life in perspective. Do you have EVERYTHING you need now? Then everything else is not as important as you think it is.

5. Is your situation the worst possible situation in the whole world? Could it be that someone else is going through much deeper pain? Be grateful for the pain and the joy because we all know that we live in a world of relativity – in other words: How would I know that I’m brunette if blond people did not exist? Pain is necessary – it has a message for us.

6. Accept your present. Embrace the job that you hate. Find beautiful things about your relationship. It is impossible for everything to be ALL negative. If you can’t find peace in the present even when you’re experiencing pain then how do you know that you will experience peace in the future when the future is completely unknown?

7. Lawfully embrace yourself, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until the day you die. Otherwise, how could you be and do THAT with your partner and with people around you when you can’t even be that towards yourself? How could your partner get to know you if you don’t even know yourself?

8. Understand that your own happiness is NOT about you. Your life purpose IS NOT about you anymore. It is about THE HUMAN RACE. We are all interdependent on one another. Refer to the village example above. That’s why your state of mind has a ripple effect on the world in a much larger scale then you can ever imagine. That’s why you can’t save the world – the only thing that you can do is save yourself by finding your own peace.

9. What if you die tomorrow? Would you be satisfied with yourself? Would you change anything about your life? We take life for granted. When we take life for granted, we take GOD for granted. There’s no difference between LIFE AND GOD.

We think that nothing will ever change when EVERYTHING is changing in every moment otherwise – there would be no life…there would be only death. So, get your forgiveness to self and others going – live each day as if it’s your last. Make sure that you don’t close your eyes without making peace with that day otherwise what happened that day will haunt you in the next.

10. Find a mentor, coach, therapist, spiritual group, someone who mastered what you desire to be, something or someone that will help you in your journey. Many people feel ashamed of getting help. Many people resist getting help because they’re so comfortable with their own pain…because if they do then they’re admitting that something is wrong….and sometimes it’s too painful to see our shadow…..so…they’d rather complain about their partner, complain about how bad life is…..complain about their job over and over again instead of taking action to make CHANGES in themselves.

Some people rely on faith alone hoping or things to be different in their lives…however faith alone is not enough. Nothing is going to change around us if our perception about ourselves and the situation doesn’t change and especially if we don’t take action to purify ourselves and make some changes in our behavior.

11. Finally this whole journey is a process. Jesus had his own struggle with grief, sadness, disappointment towards society and he worked through it throughout his life and not in ONE DAY. Buddha talked about his own suffering and worked through it all his life as well.

Every single spiritual master works through his/her own kinks throughout their lives. Enlightenment happens for hours, days, moments or months and then the reality of being human hits again. We will know better than before but we will always have things to work through.

So, instead of finding kinks in other people and trying to fix them or change them – turn your focus towards yourself because this is the only thing that you’ll ever be able to change and it’s not an easy job.

So, be gentle with yourself. Take it easy. Stop the harshness and the I should not feel this or I should not do that. Everything in your life led you to this point and time. When you begin the process or the decision of finding your own inner peace, everything will become so much more joyful. People will want to be around you more, your career will fall into place and the same for everything else in your life.

I’m here for you – always! send me your questions or comments! <3

 

10 ideas that will help you stay emotionally sane

****This article is written for everyone but I’m dedicating it to pregnant women since I’m one of them now.

I found out 5 months ago that I was pregnant with my first child. This miraculous moment brought so much tears of joy and tears of anxiety as well. I have never been a parent before. In fact, I was barely emotionally close to kids. Sure, I spent few hours here and there with my nephews and nieces but I wasn’t really taking much responsibility for anything at all.

Physical sickness comes with the territory of pregnancy for so many women, at least it was for me. In addition to having morning sickness 10 times a day and other physical illnesses, my pregnancy has a been an emotional rollercoaster that I have been embracing with all my heart. Many of us, don’t realize the grief process that we go through at this time.

We blame it on hormones.

However, while they do actually play a role in activating more of this grief or anxiety or any other emotion you experience, they are only digging up what was already in there and this needs to be looked at now rather than later especially if you want to avoid postpartum depression.

So, today I want to share with you few things that I personally do to embrace my journey, hoping that this will inspire you to create your own list and of course you can use mine as well.

 

1- Let yourself grief: As I mentioned earlier, sadness and sometimes depression come with the pregnancy game. Yes it is the hormones but it is also your consciousness telling you that it’s time to let go of your attachment to your old self (little self – mainly inner child) and embrace the new self that you can choose to create however you want. Letting go of your old identity is very painful especially if you haven’t done any or as much inner work before. You may find yourself attaching more to your mother or to things that you could relate to when you were a child or single. That’s completely normal and it’s part of the process of maturing.

What to do about this? Instead of rejecting and questioning your sadness, let it be. In other words, let yourself grief for hours, days or whatever it takes for you to feel more connected to that part of you that needs to be seen. Sometimes, I go to my bedroom and cry and write for hours. Rejecting your little self will only make your days harder and anger will build up in your body which will lead to more sickness. Talk to that self that is sad – get to know her and see what she really needs…then give it to her.

2- Express yourself: One thing I love to do when I feel down is to use writing as a medium to release my feelings. Sometimes I write for 5 minutes and other times for an hour. This helps keep my energy flowing instead of keeping everything stuck in my head. The consequence of keeping negative thoughts lead us to reacting to our thoughts and the ripple effect of this destroys our relationships with self and others. You really don’t want more drama right in your life and trust me…you can be as bitchy and angry as you want in your journal with no judgment whatsoever.

What to do about this? I have created many journals – one for sadness, one for self-inquiry, one for my conversations with God and so on. The reason why I do this is because I like to separate my negative emotions and thoughts from the ones that help me find peace. If you’re afraid of writing down your negative thoughts fearing that someone may read them, then you can easily burn everything you write every single time.

 

3- Get creative: That’s another outlet for self expression. I have been doing abstract charcoal drawings with eyes closed while playing meditative music. I don’t spend a lot of time on the drawing and it doesn’t matter how it looks – what I really care about is expressing what’s inside me and this always gets me curious because I have no idea what the result of my drawing is going to be like and it also brings me joy.

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What to do about this? First, please don’t use the excuse of not having enough time to get creative. You can even get creative while you’re on the toilet seat if you really want. Excuses are just excuses and it’s so much easier to take responsibility for your feelings then blaming them on what’s around you or on who’s around you. Talk to your husband, ask for more free time even if it was for 30 minutes a day. When we express why things are so important to us, then our partners will almost always understand and trust me,….they’ll be happy to have their own time as well. If you have no idea how to get creative then grab this book: The artist way.

 

4- Get your music going: I play Ambient music sometimes for 6 hours a day or more sometimes. It is often in the background of whatever I’m doing. Whether I’m helping a client, cooking, playing with my dogs, drawing, sleeping or having a candle night dinner at home with my hubby (we do this often and it’s highly recommended – no need for fancy dinner at home…let this be part of your get together time and it does magic). There’s something about music that relaxes the body and opens the mind. Besides, it is also very beneficial for your baby.

What to do about this? If you don’t have the right music that soothes you, then download pandora on your phone or on your desktop. You can also use Youtube or my friend Jon who is a sound healer, has created wonderful music for healing and relaxation and they’re free on his website: http://sonicyogi.blogspot.com/2013/07/sound-downloads.html

5- Be in the water: Water relaxes your body and mind and I personally connect so much more with water than with mountains. Since I live far from the ocean, I bring the ocean to my house by making epsom salt bath with aromatherapy on almost daily basis. Sometimes I add flowers and cinnamon spice to help myself connect more to the earth. I call this my Goddess time. I usually lit up candles and again play music in the background. (Please read guidelines about using aromatherapy and making a bath if you’re pregnant). I also have my go to place in nature which is Roswell Mill. It has a beautiful waterfall that calms me immediately by watching it and listening to the sound of water splashing left and right.

What to do about this? Get creative with water. Play with water, jump in a pool or a lake, river or make your own epsom salt bath with candles, flowers or whatever makes you feel more connected with yourself. Find your go to place in nature that has water as well. Don’t use the lack of time as an excuse – everything in your life comes from a decision and that can be changed by making a new decision. The more you’re relaxed, the happier your baby will be as well.

6- Meditate: I can’t stress this enough and I have to admit, I broke my meditation routine when I got pregnant but now I’m back to it. Even if you have to meditate for 5 minutes – that’s all it takes to help you connect with yourself more and ease your mind.

What to do about this? If you don’t know how to meditate, Drepung loseling have a free livestream channel. You can also follow people on youtube and also I have few meditations on my website as well. You can also do this simple meditation: sit quietly on a chair or in your meditation room and breathe in as you’re counting for 6 and breathe out as you’re counting for 8 or 10. The longer you exhale the more you’re relaxed.

7- Create your morning ritual: I have had my morning ritual for years now. It’s very important to me personally to have this because it helps me connect with myself before I start my day. If you google morning rituals, you’ll see that every highly successful person has their own morning rituals as well. However, for me success has nothing to do with my morning ritual, I do it because it brings connection to me and to God. I change it every now and then but it mainly consists of naming things I’m grateful for in the morning along with some prayers that I got from different sources such as:

Today, I’ll step back and let God lead the way.

Dear God, Thank you for all that I am and all that I have. Show me the way to console those who need to be consoled. Show me what I need to say, who I need to be and what I need to do to express you.

Dear God, where would you have me go, what would you have me do, what would you have me say and to whom. What would you have me feel and what would you have me think. (Part of this comes from ACIM)

I also add meditation, 2 minutes of writing turn around questions, music and reading a spiritual book.

What to do about this? If you don’t know what you want your morning to look like then ask yourself: what would help me feel more connected with myself in the morning? What would bring me more joy and love? For me it is spirituality – for you it could be something else.

8- Ask for help: There is no shame in asking for help. In fact, people love to feel needed and we all need to do acts of kindness towards one another ..otherwise, we would go insane and disappear as a species since we’ll end up killing one another. You deserve to be happy. In fact, your true nature is happy and the proof of it is that it is only when you’re relaxed, that everything falls into the right place, you have clarity and contentment and therefore you make the right decisions. If you believe that you don’t deserve to be happy, then you’re creating a ripple effect of destruction and negativity that will affect people around you and by affecting them you’re also affecting those around them and the ripple effect continues. What would this lead to? Killing one another? Hating one another? War with one another? Then death of our species. Take a look at the world right now and what do you think causes wars, murders and so on? They all emerge from unhappiness and pain.

What to do about this? I ask for help in different ways from my husband, mother, dad, family, sometimes friends and I even have my go to mentors and coaches that always help me remember what kind of person I want to be and help me heal what needs to be healed. Identify what you need help with whether it was emotional or physical, then ask for it gently. The right people will show up for you but this can’t be done when we complain about what we need yet we don’t do anything about it. Seek support groups as well or go to prenatal yoga classes.

9- Question your thoughts: especially those that bring you misery, sadness and depression. I usually use “The Work” by Byron Katie. She has free resources on her website: thework.com. I highly respect this woman and she’s probably the one I look up to. I can’t recommend her books or her work enough.

What to do about this? Get Byron Katie’s book: loving what is and download her free resources. Also, seek help such as therapy, coach or mentors. These individuals exist for a reason and that’s to help us when we’re ready to grow or if we’re going tough times.

My Tibetan Monk Teacher gave me a great advice : “Just like you decide to quit smoking for your child’s safety, every time you have a negative thought say to yourself: I’m not doing this right now for my own child.”

10. Be very gentle with yourself: There’s nothing to fix about you – there are only wounds to embrace and love. It’s normal to feel doubt, fear, anxiety about your pregnancy and becoming a new mother. Watch what you say and how you talk about yourself. Being judgmental is not going to help you bring peace. Always ask the question: Is this thought giving me peace or stress? Is what I’m believing 1000% true. Everything is a process and everything you’re going through in your pregnancy and in your life needs to happen otherwise it wouldn’t be happening. So, I highly encourage you to embrace what is and be objective about what’s happening instead of dramatic and judgmental. This is so much easier said then done but it’s doable and it’s only a practice.

One thing I want to invite you to remember is that your child is going to be very thankful for all the inner work that you’re choosing to do right now because it will be reflected in your relationship with them.

I love you! I hope this helps you! <3

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